Perceptive

One of my students totally knows. Perceptive little girl! I keep saying little, random things like, "The code work of the day is 'apple seed,' - I mean, hello, random! Only around my class though - but still, she's put a bunch of  "clues" together and totally knows. I'm giving her a hard time - saying that she doesn't know what she thinks she knows, but she does.

I can't wait to tell her in July.

Today

I am feeling fantastic so far today. No cramps. I think my little apple seed likes Jamba Juice.

Have I mentioned that I am referring to my little blastocyst as my apple seed? I don't think it is quite that big yet, but for some reason I have that visual stuck in my head.

 When I feel good though, like i do today, I get worried because I think maybe I'm not really pregnant, maybe the tests made a mistake... is that strange? When I have cramps, I have one worry, and when I feel nothing, then i think maybe the whole thing is imagined.

Mind you, though, I don't have really any intense feelings. Like I am not stressing, or worrying, or feelng any major intense feeling.

In fact, what I am mostly feeling right now is this sense of calm, of peace. I feel different, like something amazing is going to happen, and I am on the brink of it, and what it is going to be is going to be incredibly beautiful. I feel patient, which is very unlike me. (I don't expect THAT feeling to last.)

I think, as Grant and I begin telling people, that will generate some enthusiasm. Sometimes, it is hard not saying anything. Other times, though, it sort of accompanies my peaceful feeling. Like I am carrying around this precious little secret, this special little apple seed that only Grant and I know about.

4 weeks

Not sure, but this is where I think I am:

Pregnancy Weeks 1 to 4

The Baby:
The fertilized egg is undergoing rapid cell division. It will implant in your uterine lining this week. Once implantation occurs, it's called a blastocyst and is very tiny. It only measures 0.1-0.2 mm in diameter.

A yolk sak has developed and will be the nourishment for baby until the placenta is formed and takes over. Did you know that the sex and other characteristics of your baby have already been decided? It's all in the DNA code that was formed when the sperm and egg first met.

Another version:
WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOUR BABY

The fertilized egg has made its seven- to ten-day trip to the uterus, where it implants cozily into the endometrial surface. It is now called a blastocyst and it has divided into two parts. While you are reading this, the first part is forming the placenta and the second part will become the embryo. The two layers that make up the amniotic bag of waters are newly formed, and the very beginning of the connecting stalk -- which will become the umbilical cord -- has appeared. Until your placenta is fully functioning, the yolk sac, now present, will feed your baby. Basically, the "home" for your little one is under rapid construction!

Update

I made my Doctor's appointment today... I'm going in next Monday. Over the phone, they are treating me as though I am farther along then I really am (they based it off my last period, which was April 19, but I think that is about 3 weeks off. I think I ovulated around May 24, not May 2. But we'll see next week, I hope...)

I don't know if my "symptoms" are real now that I know I am pregnant, or if I am sort of making them up.

Still a little crampy, off and on (real foh sho as I've been crampy since last Tuesday!). Not exactly nausious, but a little odd feeling. Oh, and I am really tired right now, but I woke up at 5:00 AM and couldn't go back to sleep, so I am not too surprised.

test

I'm setting this up so I can blog from school.

Last night

I dreamed that the baby is a boy.

Father's Day

I always thought it would be neat to tell my husband that he was going to be a father on Father's Day. Well, I know Father's Day is next Sunday, but I couldn't possibly wait a whole week...! So I went out yesterday and bought Grant a Father's Day card. As I checked out, I grabbed a "New Baby" gift card and put $20 on it, since it seemed to fit the theme, and then I included a picture of the positive pregnancy test.

It took a second before it dawned on him. He was kind of confused until he saw the picture. Then he got this huge smile on his face and he says, "Really? You're not kidding me?"

I shook my head and said, "That's what the test says..."

Grant came over and gave me a huge hug and kiss and said, "I can't believe it! This is wonderful!"

I showed him the real pregnancy test, and we took another one just to be sure - so now we have two positive pregnancy tests. I'll post "Our First Baby picture" later.

Being able to talk about it with Grant does seem to make the whole thing more real...

Positive Pregnancy Test

If there is one thing I know about pregnancy, is that there are some things you just don't know until they happen to you.

Take a pregnancy test for example. Every time I have taken a pregnancy test, it has turned up negative. No matter how I try to say it is ok, or brush it off, I always feel at least a little bummed out - if not a lot.

So, I imagined that when the pregnancy test was positive, I would have some huge emotional reaction - crying, relief, happiness, worry, something.

But here I am an hour after my positive pregnancy test, and I am feeling - oddly unemotional.

Of course, I haven't been able to stop thinking about it...

Is it real?

Will it last? (I know that sounds depressing...) I am feeling crampy. Not bad crampy, but mild crampy, as though my period is going to come. In fact, the only reason I took the test is because Grant is leaving tomorrow, and if it is positive, I want to tell him in person. (Which, it, apparently, is positive.)

But I can't find too many websites that list "mild cramping" as a possible early sign of pregnancy. I found one that said "dull ache in lower pelvic region..." However, cramping is associated with miscarriage. I did find one website that had a bunch of quotes from women who described their earliest pregnancy symptoms, and three of them mentioned cramping as an early symptom.

Other symptoms? Not many. My nipples are a little sore, sort of like when I ovulate, - but I don't have overall breast tenderness. I have not been excessively tired. No food or smell aversions - thank goodness! No nausea.

So, tomorrow, I will call the doctor. Hopefully I can get in before I leave for Amsterdam!

Vital Stats: Last period was April 19.
However, I think I ovulated around May 23 - May 24. I took a pregnancy test on May 24 and it was negative.

If I am right about when I ovulated, the baby's due date will be Feb. 13 - Feb. 14.

Quiz

You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need. You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law. While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top. You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!

Would You Be a Cool Parent?

Period

One month.

Not pregnant yet.

BUT, I did get my period today. Which means that I had a fairly normal cycle - 30 days. Which means that I hopefully am ovulating fairly normally. Which means I can be a little more hopeful...

If I get pregnant this month (and have a "regular" cycle,) my due date will be February 15th. If I can ovulate a little late and have the baby a little late, then ther's a chance my baby could be born on Leap Day, Feb. 29th, but I'm not holding my breath for that! hee hee.