Last night while I was laying in bed with Grant, we were talking, and it occurred to me that I didn't really feel nervous. I ALWAYS get nervous! Before vacations, the first day of school, you name it, I get nervous. So here I am, on the dawn of one of the biggest events of my life, and I haven't had those nervous butterflies yet. Of course, mentioning it did give me a small case of the flutters - but nothing really bad.
Part of it, I think, is the unknown - you know, not knowing when it is going to happen. But part of me wonders why I am not MORE nervous because I don't know when it is going ti happen.
Today, I went in for more fetal monitoring. I was glad to go in, because I woke up kind of worried - he hasn't been moving as much. I can still do kick counts and stuff, but it was nice to be reassured.
The first lady had trouble funding measurements of amniotic fluid, but a 2nd nurse was able to get a measurement of 8.2. She says she wants me drinking lots of water and resting - but that I didn't have anything to worry about and to come back next Tuesday unless I heard otherwise.
The stress test, also, she said was fine - the baby didn't move as much, as I mentioned, but when he did, his heart rate went up. I was only on the monitoring for about 20 minutes or so - and I only had one small contraction.
I don't know - she said everything was fine but I don't feel very reassured. I woke up with the blues and just can't shake this feeling of being on the verge of crying. I know I'll never stop worrying about the baby, but it seems like once he is out, I can monitor him easier. I can see him and feel his heartbeat. I am being silly. I just got the blues.
Part of it, I think, is the unknown - you know, not knowing when it is going to happen. But part of me wonders why I am not MORE nervous because I don't know when it is going ti happen.
Today, I went in for more fetal monitoring. I was glad to go in, because I woke up kind of worried - he hasn't been moving as much. I can still do kick counts and stuff, but it was nice to be reassured.
The first lady had trouble funding measurements of amniotic fluid, but a 2nd nurse was able to get a measurement of 8.2. She says she wants me drinking lots of water and resting - but that I didn't have anything to worry about and to come back next Tuesday unless I heard otherwise.
The stress test, also, she said was fine - the baby didn't move as much, as I mentioned, but when he did, his heart rate went up. I was only on the monitoring for about 20 minutes or so - and I only had one small contraction.
I don't know - she said everything was fine but I don't feel very reassured. I woke up with the blues and just can't shake this feeling of being on the verge of crying. I know I'll never stop worrying about the baby, but it seems like once he is out, I can monitor him easier. I can see him and feel his heartbeat. I am being silly. I just got the blues.
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