The uncertainty continues...

On Monday, I had an ultrasound. The good news? The baby is growing exactly on target - all of his measurements are in the 50th percentile - pretty much exactly where he should be. However, my amniotic fluid measured at 9.2 cm, which is too low - it should be between 10 - 15 cm. right now.

I am guessing that the dehydration diagnosis from Wednesday was pretty accurate. Luckily we caught it and I am working very hard to drink at least 2 liters a day.

Also, I have very good kick counts - Usually I feel 10 kicks in 20 - 30 minutes, easily, and Dr. Feldman said that was very important.

Today, however, I went in for a Dr. visit and saw a nurse practitioner - not my normal nurse practitioner. Usually I either see Dr. Feldman, or nurse practitioner Brownrigg. Today, I was scheduled to see the nurse practitioner.

During the first part of the exam, with the heartbeat and blood pressure, the nurse asked if I minded if another nurse practitioner came in "too," with my nurse pratitiner, which to me meant that she would come in WITH my practitioner (as in, like a medical student.)

Well, she came in by herself and I did not like her. SHe seemed very alarmist and pretty much made me feel like crap. It wasn't what she said, but how she explained it - my normal doctor has a calmer demeanor - very casual and very "we'll deal with it," type attitude which puts me at ease. This delivery felt more like I better be prepared for all the worse possible outcomes, without much talk about the positive.

Essentially she said if my fluids weren't up by Friday, we'd probably start fetal monitoring - and if we did that, then I needed to be prepared o go to the hospital at a moment's notice - bags packed and everything - because if my fluids dropeed below 5cm we would induce immediatly.

Now don't get me wrong - I appreciate knowing the possibilities - but I prefer to have it presented in a "this are some of the possibilities," rather than "this could very well happen." I don't know if I am explaining it well, but I just feel - well - stressed - which can't possibly help the situation.

I feel worried that I have taken the pregnancy to casually since everything has been going so well, and I haven't been taking care of myself enough. I am working really hard to improve that - I am trying to stay off my feet when I can, rest, and drink lots and lots of water!